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Steve found out today that Bob broke up with me last Wednesday...only because Randi left us in the choir room and I just started bawling because I couldn't stop thinking about him[Bob]. It doesn't surprise me that he made no response. After asking me if there was anything he could do and then asking me what was wrong...I didn't expect much from him and I don't...I won't, ever. After all, it's his quote that titles my entry today. At least that's what Bob said that Steve said. I don't want to accuse but...Bob usually doesn't lie to me. Except to say that he loved me. Talk about an oucher. Yeah, that bites. I'd laugh if he came out of the closet or something weird like that. I don't know. It wouldn't hurt that much. Because that would be his loss, not mine. Even if I do love him so much that it hurts...
Rocky shores
Bumpy ridges
Grizzly bears
Uneven ground
Lovely Ukuleles
Luckless love
Starry luck
Random words you say? Random words are fun...or just mind boggling. What are they to you? To me they are poetry, and when they come together to form poems, it's even better. To make music is beautiful, to make harmony is divine. Divinity is not meant for men, but to find love is. What is love? Love is precious and wonderful and beautiful...love can last forever if you treat it right. Didn't I treat you right? DIDN'T I FUCKING TREAT YOU RIGHT?!?!?! Why does it hurt so much? People say it hurts so much because it's new and it's the first one and it was for so long. Why do people assume that it can't be love? To assume is to make an ASS of U and ME. Although I assumed that Bob and I would stay together forever...so I guess I made an ass of you and me too...rather I made an ass out of me and me so...Will he never take me back. After we broke up the first time he still treated me like I was okay...like he was okay with me hanging around. Now it almost feels like he detests me being there. He makes me feel like I'm nothing. "When I'm around you I feel like I'm nothing!!" the famous words of Pacey on Dawson's Creek(Wednesday night, May 2, 2001, 9pm). When I was around Bob I always felt small and insignificant. He's so smart and intelligent(redundant) and witty and funny--in his own way--and just so wonderful. He's caring and charismatic and just beautiful. I love him. And I wish he still loved me.
Rocky shores
Bumpy ridges
Grizzly bears
Uneven ground
Lovely Ukuleles
Luckless love
Starry luck
Random words you say? Random words are fun...or just mind boggling. What are they to you? To me they are poetry, and when they come together to form poems, it's even better. To make music is beautiful, to make harmony is divine. Divinity is not meant for men, but to find love is. What is love? Love is precious and wonderful and beautiful...love can last forever if you treat it right. Didn't I treat you right? DIDN'T I FUCKING TREAT YOU RIGHT?!?!?! Why does it hurt so much? People say it hurts so much because it's new and it's the first one and it was for so long. Why do people assume that it can't be love? To assume is to make an ASS of U and ME. Although I assumed that Bob and I would stay together forever...so I guess I made an ass of you and me too...rather I made an ass out of me and me so...Will he never take me back. After we broke up the first time he still treated me like I was okay...like he was okay with me hanging around. Now it almost feels like he detests me being there. He makes me feel like I'm nothing. "When I'm around you I feel like I'm nothing!!" the famous words of Pacey on Dawson's Creek(Wednesday night, May 2, 2001, 9pm). When I was around Bob I always felt small and insignificant. He's so smart and intelligent(redundant) and witty and funny--in his own way--and just so wonderful. He's caring and charismatic and just beautiful. I love him. And I wish he still loved me.
