I totally get ya. :( I feel the same way whenever I read my old RP logs. I didn't really save all off them, but I saved all the best ones. Reading them always had me torn between laughing and tearing up. For a long time, RP was like my sanctuary. No matter how bad things got in RL, I always had RP as an outlet and I got closer to some of my friends because of all the actual RP-ing and brainstorming sessions we had.

*hugs tight* As Dr. Seuss would put it, let's not cry because it's over. Let's smile because it happened. ;)